Name: Cassy Age: 14 Occupation: Psychopath/Poet (Yes, that CAN be a combination) Likes: Not much. Dislikes: Most things. Anything in Between: HaHaHaHaHa. Enjoys: Being random. Favorite Quote: "You are like a turtle with down syndrome."
Jesus fucking Christ. This is so not cool. He just HAD to wait until after I tried so hard to get over him and got myself a man I just might like. He just HAD to wait until I thought I was going to be happy and get on with my life. He just HAD to walk right back into my heart, without my permission. The fag. He finally confessed how he felt about me, not like I didn't already know, but that's beside the point. It's like- To actually hear it from him, how he wants me, craves me, is so jealous and can't handle it- It's like music to my ears. Call me conceited, call me an attention-whore, but to hear it (Even more importantly, from HIM) is just so amazing. But see; now this brings up a new problem for me. I -LIKE- Will. I -WANT- to date him and be with him, and eventually someday love him like I have with all my other lovers. But Eric is in the way. He's in the way of it all, and he knows it. He even said how he wanted me to break up with Will for him, and god DAMN if it wasn't Will I was dating, and if I didn't like him so much, I really would break up with whoever I'd be dating for him. I think some part of him knows that too, which is why he's trying so hard. He said he wanted me to be happy though, he said if it made me happy to be with Will, then to just stay with him, but the thing is- I'd be happy with HIM too... Oi, it's just so hard though. I honestly think I love the guy, but if I left Will for him, what would happen? I mean, he might not want me anymore, or we end up somehow dating and all the shit we worked for blows up in our faces, or it just doesn't work out, or wasn't even meant to be. It's too hard to think of getting broken again, just after I put myself back together. If anything is keeping us in the way of really trying to be with the other, it would be the age problem and him. But see, the age problem isn't really a problem, because I'm dating Will, who'll be turning 18 on the 3rd of September, so either way, if we're still dating by then, then it's like we're still going to have to face the same problems as if it were me and Eric anyway. So, I'm sure as fuck that could work out with no problem. So now, it's just him. He's afraid of commitment. He's afraid to be held down with commitment, and he's never satisfied. It worries me even, to think of why he does what he does. I'm with Will, and I'm staying that way but the part of me that still cares for him won't leave me the fuck alone. I just don't know what I'd do if something ever happened to him. I really do need to move on though. It's hopeless to try and have any shred of faith that anything could work between us. As sad as it is to know that, it's the truth... We both already know we're alike, and if he's as alike as me as I think he is, then there's no way... No way would I ever be able to handle it... And I finally ran into Charles today, who found out that I was dating Will, but I gave him also a brief overview of the rest of the shit that's been going on, so I guess he might get it. I just didn't want to disappoint the poor guy; I wouldn't have minded dating him. He seems really sweet. But anyway, yeah.
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